I can’t get myself to make any art. I haven’t found solace in it for a very long time. I avoid it because I don’t want to mortify myself in front of people i look up to. Everything I create looks terrible. Even when I try to create things daily, with all the practice, it’s awful. Embarrassing. It breaks my heart.

I’ve identified as an artist my entire life. I even devoted myself to proving my dad wrong, that I could make a living based off of “coloring and drawing”. I feel like I’m failing, I’m proving him right. I’m scared out of my mind.

I don’t understand how people can push themselves so hard to work a “regular job” and then create their art after they get home. I’m always too mentally and physically exhausted to do almost anything. Too stressed. Too sad. Too depressed. Terrified.

I feel like I’ve been hit by a car and I’m struggling to survive.

I feel trapped. An unavoidable feeling of doom. I can’t get myself to enjoy things I once took pride in. Video games. Cooking. Art. I’m avoiding everyone and everything. It’s like I’m stuck in a downward spiral. I put everything I have into these food-service jobs where I make barely enough money to get by. At least on the plus side… it numbs my brain.

But I… don’t know what to do.

I don’t know what I am anymore.

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buckyskywalker:

witchlingfumbles:

satdeshret:

buginateacup:

Guys who try to use the “Are you on your period?” as way to end an argument always amuse me. Because it gives me the excuse to lean in close and whisper.

“I started my day by waking up in a pool of my own blood. Is that how you’d like me to end yours?”

omfg this is great

New favorite comeback.

Is it okay if I use that?

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  • AnonymousPeople working minimum wage jobs protesting for more money is a joke. Those jobs are for high school students and people trying to pay for college. Its not enough to live off of because it is not a job for people to live off of... get a profession.
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    In 1950, fast food CEOs took home 20 times as much as their workers. In 2012, 1,203 times as much. 1000 of that is from between 2000-2012.

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    Adjusted for inflation, the minimum wage has gone down considerably since 1968, when folks got paid the equivalent of $10.56 in today’s money.

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    Productivity in American workplaces has gone up considerably, yet wages have gone down and the income gap between CEOs and the people who make them money has become insane.

    I don’t have graphs for people of color, women, and transgender people but it’s worse for them.

    The shit some troll (at best) or total trash (at worst) spouted in my askbox means nothing to me. Go enjoy your middle-class life.

    (edit: addressing your other “points”)

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